I’m not exactly sure why I’m feeling like this right now but I am. You ever get that feeling where it seems as though you have not a single person in the world to confide in yet you know you do?
I mean, I have a family, a dysfunctional one at that. And I have my boyfriend of almost 5 months here by my side. He is loving and kind and almost everything any girl would want, but I find myself many times wondering if I am truly worthy. He makes me so angry at times even though I know I shouldn’t be. It’s my fault, not his. But this makes me afraid to always talk to him because I fear I am driving him away..I don’t know what it is. Hormones? It can’t be… This just leaves me all the more puzzled.
Lately I’ve been starting to feel really depressed and I don’t want this to happen again. I would cry out for help but I’m not even able or willing to do that.
Many times I do feel happy and I cherish those times but lately I seem to be easily angered or frustrated and wa-la that ruins it.
I don’t know. Maybe I just need to take a chill pill. But where can I get one…?